We pray for that moment. We pray for the desire to love God and follow Him. We pray for Him to break our hearts for the things that break His. We ask all these things, and then what?
My heart has literally ached these past few days. I have been only offered slight solace in prayer, but it continues on.
The truth is, I don't even know what to say about it.
I will confess that I am very tempted to try to squelch out the heartache: To willfully engage in sin. To dull the senses.
Why not stop? Why try so hard?
This world is so evil. What would the difference between ultimate good and better than the average?
I can't even answer that. I soldier on. I have to say that it has to be the Spirit. Because, my reason and my will would have given up a long time ago.
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sometimes I don't even realize what I asked God for until I tear my eyes away from myself and realize that he was giving me exactly what I asked.
i pray that God give you a better understanding of what he's trying to show you.
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