Frustrated

I feel like my mind is going to explode. So in no random order, stuff on my mind.

Sunday School:
Probably one of the near most frustrating moments of my life. Why force people to come to Sunday School that have no desire to learn? What's worse is I felt I was prepared and the Spirit with me...and no result? What are you trying to teach me, God?

Love Deficit:
I feel that a lot of people around me lack love. I do not know what my approach to this will be yet. Gotta pray more. As this is something that strikes to the heart of my fellowship and family.

Get Better:
I feel this constant urge to go read more and pray more. I question whether or not this is truly from God. I pray that I get better, and it seems the path that I must take involves a heavy amount of invested time in Bible Reading, Christian book reading, etc. It leaves time for nothing else. What ends up happening is that I binge on "Christian stuff" for a week, so we are talking 3-4 hours of reading Christian stuff and praying... then I spend a couple days binging on TV. This cannot be good.

The craziest part is whether or not it is from God. I truly believe that the greatest threat upon Christianity (at least in North America) is attack on discernment and Scriptural truth. Satan could easily spur me on to the point where I get fed up and give up, (a risky move, but plausible). It is weird that I have guilt associated with rest, despite rest being perfectly cool with God.

Good Talks:
At Ryerson CCF, having no official responsibility, I was free to pray and basically talk to people at my leisure. I enjoyed this the most, counseling 1 on 1. I had a good number of talks this weekend, including a girl from grade 9 in Xara. I admire the girl (Crystal) for having such a heart for God at such a young age. (I secretly wish she was in my Sunday School Class).

The Praise of Men:
I wish I would stop caring what other people think.