Monday, June 22, 2009

Joyful?

I was having a discussion with a friend regarding random stuff that need not be mentioned anymore.... and I asked her if she saw me as a happy or joyful person.

She said no. Her assessment is most likely true.

I come off as the sarcastic, joke filled, sometimes insightful, sometimes mean person who is more likely to destroy momentum than create it.

But, God can change me.

I have experienced pure joy in different circumstances. It seems that those times are fewer and fewer. I would usually read something and get excited for Jesus. But, time for reading has been scarce. Or I would hear a wicked sermon, and feel that holy discontent.

So the question is... have I caved into the pressures of the world and succumbed to her temptation? Or maybe I am living in disobediance to what He has commanded me to do? [I can think of at least one thing I have been putting off].

Or is this what life has to offer? There must be more. I know it.

1 comment:

eleasa said...

don't forget nehemiah's words to the israelites: the joy of the LORD is your strength.

& don't forget what paul wrote to the philippians: I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

i'm sure you know this.

i think you're an insightful, intelligent, discerning lover of God. & i've seen some of your moments of glee/joy. :)

amen to God's grace that transforms us from the inside out.