Random Thoughts

These are some random thoughts that I don't want to develop into full discourse. Each of these could be developed into a full blog post, but I'm too lazy right now.

People listen to me _

I realize that I have a lot of influence on people. I can attract attention via jokes and stuff. I am big...I take up space...so people have to look at me. What do I do with this influence? Tell jokes. :/

I don't want to be typecasted as the spiritual guy who has to always shape and push for things. What of responsibility? If God gives you a talent or ability to work with, are we not to fully devote its use to God. I pray that I will be diligent in seeking opportunities to not only speak of the Word, but act on it.

Ministry _

Note to self: Learn to stop trying to appease others or my Christian image. Appease God and Him only.

Condemnation _

Which kind of stems from the above ministry and stuff. I have trouble dealing with being loved unconditionally. It is weird to say that eh? I know what I read, that God loves us despite our inability to do anything.

It was easier for me to do things for God, when I was working out my salvation in fear and trembling. But, obedience is a result of justification... not a working towards. How does one stay motivated to do works for God when the prize is already won?

Sigh, I know nothing.

All Talk, No Walk _

Again... need to do more for the Kingdom, rooted in God's love, not in vain conceit or selfish ambition...but God's perfect love.

Guilty in Rest _

I have an irrational fear of resting. Why rest, do more for the kingdom! Rest is needed and important. I fear condemnation from others when I rest, why not do more?! Note to self: ignore people.